Ah screw it. It's been two hectic days. Yesterday after arriving at the hospital, we didn't even get to see Joen. After Joen was born yesterday, the docs noticed that her breathing was abnormally quick and so they held her back for observations. And guess what, it's cause she has an unknown bacterial infection of the lung(s). Unknown as in, they can't find which bacteria it is, even up till now. Yeah and so she couldn't get enough oxygen and had to be put in an incubator and etc etc so we couldn't see her.

Then in the middle of the morning today, around 4am, my bro received a call asking him to rush down to settle some procedures. The docs decided that her case was too severe and wanted to transfer her from Mt. Alvernia Hospital to KK Hospital cause she needed more sophisticated equipment. Yeah then they took one whole hour to move her from one incubator to another cause she seemed unwilling to move, as in, her heartbeat would drop like mad whenever you moved her to the new incubator. But they succeeded finally, of course.

We then woke up at 7am today and waited for my bro to fetch us to Mt. Alvernia to pei my sis-in-law. While waiting, my mom was crying and crying.. And on the way there, my bro broke down quite a few times, like whenever we reached a red light and he took his mind off driving for a while. I didn't know what to do at all, so I tried to help carry things and just asked if they were okay. We pei-ed my sis-in-law (who was pretty strong emotionally) till 1pm and went home so my bro could catch a nap.

Around 4plus, we went again, accompanying my sis-in-law till 6pm cause my bro arranged for early discharge. Then we took her to KKH to take a look at Joen in the ICU (Intensive Care Unit). Meanwhile, me and momo just walked around the KKH Mall (Yes they have a mall) cause the ICU only allows two visitors. My bro and sis-in-law were looking at Joen, and also waiting to speak to the doc in charge but he/she was too busy, so my bro asked us up to the ICU and my mom went in while I stoned outside. And while waiting, I drank like, my tenth cup of milo in two days. I think I drink milo when I'm sad/worried or something. But after 10mins my mom asked me to go in, turns out we could stand outside the ICU to look.

That was my first time looking at Joen. And for once, I wanted to cry so so so so so badly. Joen was so small, so cute, so adorable. But she was attached to SO MANY machines all bigger than her and there were tubes all over. Like in her hands, and one that's in her mouth, linking all the way down to the lungs or something. They had to inject her with so many things, and she was just lying there, sleeping under drugs. It was so heartbreaking. And I remembered what I prayed to God just earlier in the day, I prayed, "God, let Joen be okay, even if her lungs aren't strong enough to play sports with me in future, she can join performing arts too! I'll love her so much still." and I started crying, though I held my tears back in time. Or I'd just make the other three there cry too. ): Joen is so pitiful.. Ahh.

Anyway, I didn't say it earlier, but after Joen was sent to KKH, the docs say her situation is stabilizing alr. But the thing is, when they sent her for a scan, they found something in her brain. IN HER BRAIN. Like what? Gahhhhhhhhhhh. So of course my bro didn't tell my sis-in-law and that's why she's so strong about it. But the three of us know it and that's why the three of us were so depressed. Now I know how the people in drama serials feel. Like, you have to keep something so drastic from someone and act happy about it.

Ahh. A few photos I took.